Broken glasses

Broken glasses?
What is this – are you mocking my eyesight?
I’ve been deformed from birth I get it
But I came for help
I wanted to see ..to see it all
To experience LIFE like I’ve always dreamed
Thinking you were a friend I came
Scratch that – you lured me here
You promised me you could fix this
All I needed was to follow you
Follow your turns and shut out all other words
You dangled the possibilities before me
I saw it, the utopia of complete knowledge
Colored in bright red I couldn’t miss it
The whole world fit in this little cube.. I would be a mastermind
I  would see clearly ..finally
And along I came
Like fallen Adam
Lured on
In a quest for 20 20 vision

So PLEASE explain to me these.. Broken glasses
These crevices through which you have poured more lies into my naive mind
Broken glasses that have broken my life
Warped my mind,  messed up my sanity
Broken glasses that look like a token paid for strife
Like a disaster pieced together to create another disaster
When we know fully well that 2 wrongs won’t make things right

How did I ever believe you?
Drugs don’t solve a thing! These images are an illusion
And more booze? When I am in a drunken stupor, I am useless to myself!
And yea, more sex didn’t make him love me
Neither did it make me feel less lonely or depressed
Argh,  you liar – Nothing you said was true!
I went this far with you just to get broken glasses.. really?

How silly of me to have chosen you over Him
How foolish of me to believe that anyone was wiser than Him, or kinder
How did I ever think i could live without the Word – the treasures of wisdom and knowledge
Like a lying consultant, you over promise and under deliver
In truth, you never give without taking much more
Truth is, I hate this.
I hate your guts
I hate that I believed you
I hate that I didn’t know better
So forget you Satan.
Take your broken glasses and go smash your head with  it
Shatter these cursed pieces of glass in your own eyes
Swallow your pills of lies until you lie, passed out from overdose
I’m so done with you!

Broken glasses, really?
What is this – were you mocking my eyesight?

~Elena